June 7, 2009

I'm being hit with baby fever today...not sure why...

Maybe it's because I've been clearing out what would have been our nursery to make room for my business items.

I keep going back and forth on whether or not to get rid of all the baby items...a swing, a jumparoo, changing table, cradle, playpen...etc...

Part of me says "Get rid of it...you need the space". The other part of me says "Keep it and store it...you may need it some day".

I feel as though now I'm getting too old to have more babies.

?????? Guess I just needed to get that out.

2 years and where we are today ---

My husband and I just passed our 2 year failed IVF mark.

As I was driving home from taking my soon-to-be 17 year old son to work it hit me --- I recalled the pain, the heartache and how it affects me today.

Even though my request to give birth to a baby was denied, I feel so lucky to take care of 3 adorable little girls a few times each week.

I'm not sure how often I will be updating this blog as I'm confident my husband and I will not try again.

I want to thank each and everyone of you for your support, kind words, e-mails, prayers and positive vibes.

Today, I'm building a new children's business! Please visit me there at: http://www.littledivatutus.com/

THANK YOU!!!

- Melissa

A year later...

A year after our first IVF cycle, hubby and I are considering giving it another try in the coming months...

I'll keep you posted. ;)

Nearly 6 months later...

Well, it's almost December 1st. Had we been successful at our first IVF attempt, I'd be due with a baby any day now.

I've had my ups and downs over the last several months. I've gained weight, felt sorry for myself, asked why several times, but am now ready to just move on.

As of late, my youngest sister volunteered to be a surrogate for us. She was willing to use her eggs to fulfill our dream of having a another child.

Last week, we decided to postpone things. Both my husband and I had this unsettling feeling that something wasn't right.

For now, we are content with our decision to stop the process. Although we'd love to have a baby, something is telling us to stop.

Our IVF journey ends for now...

Sadly, our recent bump in the road has forced us to end our second IVF journey.

I prayed about the situation and am at peace with our decision.

Thank you for all your support.

-Melissa

Holding out for good news tomorrow...

I'm pretty open on this blog, but I got some news tonight that may halt our entire process...and although I'm not going to really get into it here...a lot is riding on what we hear tomorrow from our Dr.

Sometimes I wonder if I've ever wanted anything as bad as this baby...everything seems to be on track...it looks like the perfect month for us to do this and then today...bump in the road...

I'm not one to complain much. I just have to know that if this bump stops our process then it's truly not the right time.

Ultrasound brings good news!

Today was our first ultrasound since deciding to give Invitro another try.

Good News!

We have 10 baby follicles developing!! That's super! We haven't seen more than 5 or 6 through this entire process so to have 10 before any medications or treatments is a great start!

My next appointment is June 4th. We'll see where to go from there!